Anonymous

At a young age, I was blessed by wonderful grandparents and not so great parents. My life wasn’t horrific as some, but I didn’t have an ideal childhood. By 18, I had a baby. I was forced into a marriage by my parents. By 19, I was divorced and doing some cocaine and drinking. I wasn’t addicted to it, but I wanted all of my pain to go away. I prayed to God to just end my life. I always felt unloved. I looked for love in all the wrong places. I worked three jobs to survive with much assistance from my grandparents. I got involved with another guy by age 20 who treated me okay, but he was an alcoholic. DUI after DUI. I didn’t know if he would come home at night or be out drinking somewhere. We were together for about ten years. I had a son with him, and we were divorced by the time my son was 5. Life has been rocky for me. I always had doubts in my mind and not much love in my heart. I married one last time in my thirties. This is pure love. I know my husband loves me because he tells me every single day how beautiful I am and he loves me. My son has been addicted to drugs since he was 18. He has visited numerous rehabs. Drug addiction sucks the life out of you as a mother. I have been in many dark places since this addiction started. I have been sad and so angry. Now I have peace. People ask me how I have peace with a son who is a recovering addict. My answer is always the same. The Lord gives me peace. He grants it to me when I am at my worst and calms me every day. My weekday mornings always start the same. I talk to God every morning on my way into work, and I give him all of my worries and troubles. He has NOT failed me yet. He has answered all of my prayers, and continues to show how to be happy, grateful and serve him. When I thought I didn’t want to live anymore, he would turn everything around and show me peace. I serve on a regular basis. I make sure people are cared for and loved. I have peace in my life. I have peace with my child. Thank you God for giving that to me.